Hope

This early morning, I started my day by praying with a friend over Skype.

We started this prayer habit together early last week, and it's been refreshing and encouraging for me!

Personally, I'm not confident when it comes to praying with another being.

In fact, I have never really prayed willingly with someone else.

So this is a good start!

This post is a compilation of songs which I find very hopeful and inspiring.

Today's prayer list consisted of a repeated name of a person we prayed for recently.

It's someone we hold our concerns for and that someone may have gone further away in faith.

Anyways, I know I wrote a post some time early last year which included the same songs.

But I truly think it's worth writing and sharing about again, so yeah!

So this can be like a playlist that matches up with your feelings.

Here goes, all these songs are by the inspiring and absolutely heart-warming, Tenth Avenue North!

The Struggle

when/what you're feeling: You are struggling with something - whether it be temptations, faith, poverty, depression, loneliness and need hope.

By your side

what/when you're feeling: lonely, hopeless, lifeless, meaningless, confused, doubtful - and when you need to hear what God has to say.

Worn

what/when you're feeling: tired, burdened, worn out, used - when you feel like giving up

Times

what/when you're feeling: guilty, sad, doubtful, pain- like you need to tell God how you feel, and when you need his assurance and grace

Hold my heart

what/when you're feeling: tired of waiting, heartbroken, doubtful - when you need to just vent out to God and hear Him and how real He is.

Empty my hands

what/when you're feeling: empty and yet burdened at the same time; trapped, tired.. when you have a handful and distracted.

Beloved

what/when you're feeling: unloved, guilty, undeserving, like you need to hear what God has to say

Let it go

what/when you're feeling: prideful - when you need answers

Love is here

what/when you're feeling: hungry, tired, lonely, hopeless, unloved

Any other way

what/when you're feeling: heartbroken, in pain, okay - when you need to hear what God has to say about your circumstances and feelings

Happy Listening! :)

Blog Challenge: Likes and Dislikes

Hello Marshmallowsssss :D

Truth be told, I like and dislike many things.

And since I've made a blogpost on 100 things I like, 

I'll try to think of 3 things I really really like, and 3 things I really dislike;

and elaborate on them :)

I like deep talks. I dislike (pointless, typical) small talk.

As much of an extrovert people think i am, I realized I tend to have preferences and habits regarding communication.

About a few days ago, a friend of mine said this.

"Hey Chelsea"

'Hey, yes?'

"Ermm i know you don't like this sort of thing like asking how you are and stuff

But is it ok to ask??"

And I kinda laughed. So I opened up to the conversation and said

'Haha :)

It's not that I don't like it

I just find small talk pointless

But once every now and then, should be fine.

Im okay :) And you?'

So truthfully, it's very rare to find me starting a conversation first.

Because I wouldn't unless I have a reason to.

And need I explain, if you've been in a heart to heart conversation with me,

I really like topics regarding relationship, values, finance, past experiences, beauty, fitness, things that make people generally better or worse, etc.

Pretty much topics that leave my heart thumping, mind thinking, ears open, eyes gazing and life-changing.

And I tend to not be so interested in conversations that end up with "I'm fine, and you?"

Or "nothing much, you?"

I like water, I dislike soft drinks.

A year+ ago at Lucy's Kitchen

If you've dined with me before, you'd know that I really love my water.
Like seriously, I really love water.
And as a kid, I've never been the type to indulge in junk foods; instead, I loved my carbs, meat and water.
And almost everywhere I go, I order water.
Most people think I'm healthy or just ordering it for the sake of thirst.
But I really do enjoy drinking water somehow. haha.
However, apart from water, I like Soyamilk, Green tea, and milkshakes!
OH, and at times, iced milo, honey green tea from yoyo or something like such.

BUT. It's very rare to find me ordering soft drinks.
Because I dislike the taste of coke, pepsi, Sprite, 100+, etc.
ESPECIALLY FANTA. yuck.

I like dancing!

Probably about 4 years ago with the girls at PCBC :)

Love Feast 1

3 years ago with a group of our youths! :D Performing Reconciliation

For Love Feast 2

About 1 year + ago with the girls at SIB Likas, for Powerhouse's 10th yr anniversary.

Sooooo I actually really like dancing!

I never really attended any dancing classes or what not..

But I admire girls who can dance, and I enjoy dancing!

My very first experiences of really dancing and performing, was when I was 12. 

I performed with a small group of girls to the song Disturbia for our class assembly.

I was probably so clueless and all, but I really enjoyed it!

And when I was 13 and 14, I danced with a few other girls to the exact same song,

 but for different school events.

The other dance performances I participated in were in church.
The first one was for the first love feast I attended;
A group of us did a dance to a Christian song.

The second was for the second love feast;
It was like a dance-drama, which I really enjoyed!
I got the lead part, and it was a great experience.

And the last dance production I was in was the start of last year;
I did a hip-hop mix kinda dance with the C.A.T.S crew.
They were really talented, and like the others, I had fun!

So dancing isn't actually a talent/gift for me.
But probably a hidden passion? HAHA. I would like to learn HipHop after my exams though!
FunFact: I wanted to learn Ballet when I was younger but my parents didn't let me :(

I dislike sports with a lot of foot skills

As a kid, I was pretty active.
I loved to participate in activities and all.
And as a pre-teen, my favourite sports/activities to play were dodgeball, flags and basketball.
HAHA btw just because I liked basketball then, doesn't mean I was good at it ^.^'
I just liked it for the fun of it; but put me in a real game, and I'd probably hate it.

But as I grew older, I tend to lean towards sports which are more idk, passive?
So I enjoy badminton and captainball.

One sport I absolutely am sure I dislike is.. football.
I know, I'm sorry you soccer fans.
But I am definitely bad with my foot.
Like I've played futsal, I broke my toenail. AND I WAS WEARING SHOES T.T
And somehow, I really suck at kicking a ball with my foot.

I mean people say to kick it with like the sides of your foot or something,
but I feel more comfortable kicking with like the top of my foot.
And Idk, soccer just isn't for me I guess :X

I'm sorry, I couldn't find a photo with my vivid face. But this was my basketball team!

And the usual SIB LIKAS group for Captainball! About a year + ago! :)

And that sums up 3 likes and dislikes! :D

50 confessions

1- I stock up on face masks

2- I've only ever told 5 guys I loved them. (I felt pressured to say it to the first two, the third one was pity love, the fourth one was actually loving the person in my head, and I meant it for the last one).

3- I've only ever told one guy I loved him, in person.

4- I would rather have more sons than daughters

5- I have a box full of written letters/cards/notes and dear miscellaneous things.

6- I own a collection of diaries

7- I used to collect mini things as a kid for my "playland" - yes, FYI, I had a lovely childhood.

8- I own quite a variety of jewellery, but never wear them apart from a few.

9- I only own a pair of jeans

10- I stalk myself alot.

11- I dislike cats and am scared of them

12- I weigh 47kgs

13- I wanted to be a pastor when I was a kid.

14- I used to categorize guys who showed interest in/confessed to/liked me  

Alphabetically based on the first letter of their names

15- my first 'real' pet was a guinea pig and I used to call her my best friend

16- my sister and I used to set up "traps" before we sleep - we lived in KL then okay, it was dangerous. Don't judge.

17- I pretended I was Jesus and made my sister give me her mamee monster (the junk food) when we were younger 

18- I don't actually like people to sit on my bed :x

19- I wrote a love letter when I was 12 and pretended I was this Japanese girl called Amelia. I regretted big time.

20- I used to be a bus monitor for Kilkenny drive (when I was in NZ)

21- my best friend and I were in a basketball team when we were 14, and we were like the shortest players. We were very unskilled and only got into the team because there weren't many people :a lol

22- I stalk people's followers and following on Instagram :B (pft not like you don't, pfssssh)

23- I feel proud when people used to ask if I've smoked and I say I don't because I actually don't. 

24- I lose my appetite when I'm on a date, unless the date mainly involves eating

25- I really dislike it when guys ask if I'm wearing make up when they know I'm wearing make up

26- I don't actually tell people they're good looking if I don't think they are :c 

27- the topic of relationships captures my attention everytime and anytime

28- I get really pressured and annoyed when people rush me, especially when I'm getting ready in the morning

29- I stop replying when the conversation goes stale

30- one of my greatest fears is height

31- I'm secretly really scared of either dying from drowning in the middle of a deep ocean and having some sea creature eat me, or falling into an icy pole ocean where everything is dark and cold and you don't know what lingers beneath and you can't even go up the surface

32- I'm claustrophobic, especially when I get locked in a toilet.

33- I don't actually like people 'poking' or zapping me.

34- I don't take offensive jokes that well.

35- I'm obsessed with dental care.

36- I window shop alot. Especially in pharmacies.

37- I fall for some guys very easily, but I find it hard to commit.

38- I have a tendency to not rely on people financially. Especially guys.

39- I tend to keep my 'checking out time' or glancing time to only a second or less.

40- I find it amusing to see someone else check someone else out. Hahaha

41- I'm pretty bad with directions :c

42- I used to train myself to be a 'princess' by putting a book on my head and balancing it whenever I walk

43- I once threatened a boy that was bullying my sister in the playland in ikea that I would call the police. Then we became friends.

44- whenever I order a meal separate from my sister, hers seems to taste better. And I'd want to have hers instead. 

45- I used to hate badminton, then I liked a guy who played badminton and I guess that changed.

46- I've read 50 shades of grey, but didn't finish the book.

47- Whenever I play river flows in you or wedding dress, people think I can play the piano pretty well, but the actual fact is that I learned to play the simplified version.

48- I've never finished reading the whole bible.

49- When I was younger, I lied that I could see God when my childhood bestfriend, Jess, said she could. When they asked what he looked like, the 5 year old me said "colourful".

50- I name all the random unknown phone numbers I come across as Vat 1, Vat 2, Vat 3...

心跳

Heartbeat :(

For translation of the lyrics

Turning Seventeen

So I'm 17! and I got seventeen friends of mine to ask me seventeen questions for this post;

1. If you had the chance to time travel into the past and meet your past self just so you can tell them about how you became to be, at what year would you go back to and what would you tell them?

- 2009, I would tell my old self that I've grown to become stronger emotionally and mentally, grown to have attained a better self-esteem and that my character and personality is determined partly by my experiences.

2. Before you leave Malaysia, who do you want to see and talk to? - you can only pick one person.

- I would want to see and talk to um.. him again.

3. What's your first thought on turning 17? :3

- one more year to go and I'm 18! Yaaaay

4. What is the top 3 best thing that has ever happened to you? :) In full details!

- The opportunity to move/change. I think that is the best thing that has ever happened to me, to have the privilege of migrating to KL, New Zealand, and back to KK. Because throughout this journey, I can see how God has blessed me so abundantly.

Relationships. They have a different joy and pain in every single one, but most importantly, they (the experience) become part of who you are along this journey.

puberty HAHAHHA

5. How amazing is your life so far?

- So far, pretty amazing.

6. If you have three wishes, what would it be?

- To be able to pass with all A* in my O levels. To keep every good friend I've ever made. To be able to be slim even while having all the food I would ever crave for.

7. How do you feel celebrating your birthday in Malaysia and not in New Zealand with your close friends?

- I'm not sad, but I kinda expected myself spending my seventeen with someone that means something, a bestfriend perhaps.

8. If you could have anything in the world or live someone's life, what would you pick? That includes being older or time travel or anything is possible.

- HMMMM, anything? Infinite money

9. What/where do you think you'll be like/at, at 18?

- At 18, I hope to see myself as someone really smart and hard-working, pretty and skinny (LOL), Godly, probably with a good sense of humour and influential. I hope to see myself ready to leave my current place, to somewhere I can start a new journey.

10. Best gift your future boyfriend can give you?

- To bring me to another level with God; to help me love God more and experience that love together.

11. If you could go back in time and re-live one moment, when will you want to go back to and why?

- Gee. This is tough. Either a few months back, where life was revolving around love. Because I actually miss people.

12. If there was something in life that you wish others would see the same way as you, what would it be?

- Probably the way people treat others. I think that they should treat others the way they wish to be treated; and with respect, kindness and more appreciation. And how bullying is a big matter, and shouldn't be taken so lightly.

13. In your twenties, what do you wish to become?

- early twenties, I wish to become someone's girlfriend. haha and mid twenties, I wish to become a MRS someone and a lovely mother.

14. To what extend do you agree/disagree with human equal rights?

- I agree that everyone should be treated with respect and equality. However, I don't support human rights that goes against principles from the bible; such as gay marriages. God loves the people, but it's their actions that are not right. So to a certain extend, I agree and disagree with human equal rights.

15. In your own words, define "LOVE"

Hm, in MY own words. I would say love is a feeling and a choice. It is something that can be developed, and something that is set upon as a choice. Love can be a feeling, in the sense where people use it to describe how they feel towards someone; and love is a choice, because it's not forced upon anybody, and it's a decision one has to make.

16. What is the most difficult thing you have ever been through?

The most difficult thing? I would say um, is that phase of being insecure. When I had to face a lot of anonymous hate, and to deal with accepting my flaws.

17. How do I define friendship?

Friendship. Um, it is something I don't take lightly. I didn't use to consider many people as my "friend" because I think it takes someone to actually truly be a friend. I think friendship has to be mutual, where both sides feel that the other actually means something? And friendship is only possible if both people agree to be friends. Friendship has to have the basic foundation of being able to communicate, the ability to develop trust and relation. Because if a 'friendship' is just a hi-bye thing, and doesn't have any room for connecting, then it's just called acquaintance.

IM CRAVING

F O O D

F O O D

F O O D

Seriously, I am craving things like mad.

Every food I'm craving at this very moment:

1. pasta - carbonara

2. Mango pancake from Lucy's

3. chocolate - like um the yummy ones

4. onion rings from like pictures

5. churros with chocolate sauce

6. Lamp chop - from everywhere

7. french toast - made by my mum and esther T.T

8. eggs - scrambled, poached

9. sushi - salmon, those from the sushi train 

10. chicken, fried chicken. deep fried chicken

11. ice cream

12. mushrooms - mushroom soup and sauteed

13. pizza - from pizza hut, or the one i ate a few days ago, or the wisma ones.

14. choppo - from lido or KL

15. sausages - those juicy ones that taste amazing

16. bacon *melts

17. lamb shank from secret recipe

18. turkey from years ago at christmas

19. HAM, the christmas ham, that tasted so freaking amazing

20. blueberry pancakes

21. banana, fried banana. goreng pisang :'(

22. Sweet and sour pork. 

23. duck rice; Juicy duck with amazing honey sauce on the skin. yum.

24. chewy cookies. from NZ dairys and famous amos

25. cookie dough ice cream

26. frozen yoghurt from moocow or tutti fruitti

27. ice-cream biscuits - like amazing ones

28. banofee pie - that loves my tummy

29. MACCAS mmmm. 

30. brownies

31. cheeseburgers

32. oysters

33. rice - soft fluffy rice

34. Oreo Mcflurry that tastes so good

35. secret recipe cake <3 p="">

36. omu rice - from the tuck shop in my old school with tons of tomato sauce

37. smoked duck

38. fish and chips from NZ

39. chicken and chips with mayonaise and honey mustard in the foodcourt

40. chocolate twisted bun for $2 in New World.

Note to self;

NO RELATIONSHIPS, please.

Just don't make the same mistakes again.

#note to self

Run towards God as fast as you can,

if someone catches up,

introduce yourself.

100 things I like :)

Did you know..... that

1. I like sushi
2. I like salmon. Raw or smoked.
3. I like water, alot.
4. I like blondes
5. I like to see "see more" when people write to me on my wall :3 hehe
6. I like to see long messages
7. I like the game of truth
8. I like questions.
9. I like the flavour cookies and cream
10. I like cookies and cream ice cream
11. I like cookies and cream chocolate
12. I like cookies and cream mochi
13. I also like Vanilla.
14. I like vanilla chocolate too.
15. and vanilla ice cream
16. I like it when people like my stuff
17. I like it when people write to me - like letters or cards.
18. I like deep conversations.
19. I like the colour black
20. I like guys
21. I like girls too
22. I like pandas
23. I like pink
24. I like Starbucks
25. I like guys that are Godly
26. I like guys that are musically talented
27. I like smart guys
28. I like being smart
29. I like maths - when I'm good at it
30. I like huge teddy bears.
31. I like the movie " A walk to remember "
32. I like unexpected phone calls
33. I like long phone calls
34. I like it when I win
35. I really like captainball
36. I like dreaming
37. I like how I look - at times
38. I like it when people are honest or straightforward
39. I like 2012
40. I like going to different youths
41. I like socializing
42. I like meeting new people
43. I like compliments
44. I like calendars, diaries and any organizer things
45. I like watching short films
46. I like girls with nice hair - their hair I mean.
47. I like my last name
48. I like the name David
49. I like polaroid photos
50. I like Cotton On
51. I like reading relationship books - christian relationship books
52. I like watching Amanda Seyfried act
53. I like the topic relationships
54. I like tetris
55. I like the number 2
56. I like classy looking things
57. I like mainstream music
58. I like churros
59. I like hello pandas
60. I like open people
61. I like deep people
62. I like japanese food
63. I like korean food
64. I like meat
65. I like mushrooms
66. I like ice cream
67. I like confident (but not overly-confident) people.
68. I like playing shooting games
69. I like eating, alot.
70. I like korean dramas *thumbs up
71. I like observing people
72. I like makeup
73. I like weheartit.com
74. I like roses
75. I like the twilight series
76. I like girly cute stuff
77. I like modern furniture
78. I like Godly people
78. I like worship
79. I like colourful pens
80. I like presents
81. I like nice toenails
82. I like to have good skin
83. I like lingerie
84. I like the wind
85. I like tiny crabs
86. I like well-mannered people
87. I like milkshakes
88. I like tribal patterns
89. I like it when people say I smell good
90. I like floral scents
91. I like making things for people
92. I like golden tans
93. I like bananas
94. I like writing
95. I like quilted bags
96. I like wearing shorts
97. I like moustache
98. I like it when people call me "sunshine"
99. I like holding hands
100. I like tiny white coloured cute dogs

so yeap! that's 100 things I like :D

Goodbye 2012

Good day last day of twenty-twelve!

Honestly, 2012 has been such an eventful year for me! I spent my first half of the year in my beloved New Zealand, and the other half of 2012 - migrating back to my home-town! I honestly believe that 2012 is a year that was filled with love, change, trials, and reunion.

I think it's such a blessing that I got the chance to live in New Zealand for almost 5 years, and returning back to my hometown after 10 years! It's such a life-changing experience for me this year. I can honestly say it's my favourite year out of my sixteen years of being alive.

I have met so many people that have impacted me in many different ways, and have changed with so any along the way. For the first half of the year (in New Zealand) I got to be closer friends with people such as Kenny, Charles, Samantha and Jason. Had the chance to re-unite with my older friends whom I kinda stopped becoming friends with, such as Winnie and Sandra. And I got to meet new people, and got to know some people from my year a bit better (Hui Ling, Lily, Matthew, James, Jacky, Sahil, Jackson, etc).

I really enjoyed this year, and am very happy and blessed to be able to meet and be friends with these people. I'm also very thankful that I am still friends with many of my closest friends from intermediate, it's kinda like childhood friends, and they all mean so much to me.

I cannot be much happier being bestfriends with these girlies for such a long time! Katie, Helen, Steph, Bertha and Vibha! They all play such a huge role in my life; supporting me and constantly being there with me. And my youth in New Zealand, Krave. You guys are such a big part in my life! Thankyou to my leaders, Pauline, Mark, Isaac and Venus for looking out for me :) I miss youth! And I can't wait to be back.

The second half of my year (migrating back to Malaysia) - I got to meet many different and amazing people. I didn't use to like Malaysians (even though I am one myself). But I feel so silly to have felt that way. I mean the people here are so friendly and amazing, I really do love it here.

During my time here, I've met 3 super awesome people that never fail to make me happy. Marcus, Elve and John. I turn to them in everything, and they're the best people I know here. They make my life so so much happier, and I'm honestly really happy God has blessed me with such amazing people.

Along the way, I am very glad that I got to re-unite back with my best cousins Sheena and Sheleen, every moment with them is such a joy and I just miss being with them! Also having friends like Nath, Sasha, Aaron, the Hengs, and Kimberly; They all have played a big part in making me feel welcome. And I'm really thankful for my school friends, How uei, Hao jie, Natalie, Seulki, Foo, Isaac; They all have been really good friends to me during my time in school and outside of school.

So I really am thankful to God that he has blessed me so much, and that I could look at this change as a blessing, instead of something bad. He is truly amazing!

I look forward in spending 2013 with all these people in my life - both in New Zealand and Malaysia.

Thankyou God for blessing me abundantly! And Everyone that surrounds me, you guys are amazing! Have a blessed New Year, and have a positive year ahead of you! :)